It's actually pretty interesting to read my old blogs from a while back. I was a completely different person back then, wow....what a difference two years makes. It's pretty interesting to read up on my past, I don't even remember some of the things that I blogged about, but apparently they happened.  I conclude that two or three years ago: I was very foolishly in love, had such a strong faith in God and actually liked myself a lot. Interesting.
          Well, the title of this blog entry is Today my neighbor died... and she seriously did! I woke up and heard a stranger's voice coming from my living room, it sounded like an old lady. She sounded pretty calm and after I knew that she left I went outside and talked to my mom about it. My mom said that she was trying to call her friend (who lived across the street from us) for days now, but she would never pick up her phone. The lady then drove over here and knocked on her friend's door, and she still wouldn't answer. The friend came over to our house to use our phone because she didn't have one and she called 911. The police came, broke her door down and before I knew it, an ambulance came. I was watching the whole time from my window and saw paramedics move a stretcher with a body on it and the body was covered. It was pretty sad...I never met or saw the lady, but still...it's sad.
          I think i'm going to start writing from now on, it'll give me a chance to distract myself, and who knows, maybe five years down the line i'll look back on my entries and feel good that I have some written memories. In other news, these past couple of months have been really rough for me, really rough. I'm surrounded by so many awesome, Godly individuals, yet i've never felt so alone in my life. My faith is...just not what it used to be. At Bible study we learned that during our life time, God leads us through valleys and mountains. I've been on the highest mountains, and I miss it. Right now, i'm in the lowest valley and I don't see any climeable mountains in any direction....God, please help me...